Those of you far removed from the Castro are probably not aware that a movie is being shot here on the life of pioneer gay rights activist Harvey Milk. Businesses along the main two blocks of Castro Street have been taking down their signs and window displays to recreate what the blocks looked like 30 years ago at the dawn of the gay pride movement. The neighborhood even had a different name. It was then known as Eureka Valley, and it was also known to be the home largely to middle class Irish Americans who weren’t always that friendly to the new gay inhabitants. In the middle of it Harvey Milk opened up Castro Camera. And for the brief time of the movie shoot Castro Camera lives again as the owners of the lotion and shampoo store that is there now agreed to give up their space to recreate Harvey’s store. Perhaps most noticeably to most, the giant tan Castro Theater sign has been recreated in it’s 70’s gaudy red and blue. It’s a major improvement over the current drab paint job that many of us hope they decide to keep.
This past weekend the Candlelight March that occurred when Harvey Milk and Mayor George Moscone were assassinated was recreated. I participated in it, and it was an amazing experience that I just had to share.
A call went out for volunteers to march briefly up Market Street, late on a Friday night, unpaid, and , oh, by the way, please remember to wear 70’s like clothes and bring your own candles. Bring your own candles? What kind of low budget operation was this???
When you stop to think about it, 1,500 candles is an expense to be avoided if you can. It turned out that they had candles on hand anyway for anyone who showed up without one.
A candle, however, was a small price to pay, for getting to feel, somewhat vicariously, like a part of history. I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.
Roll back 30 years for a moment. 30 years ago I was working as a morning newsman on a radio station in the Tampa Bay area. I remember reading the stories about the murder of Harvey Milk with a serious lump in my throat that was probably easy to hear.  When the news went out about what happened to Harvey, the gay communities in several other cities also had candlelight marches. That’s something that isn’t as well remembered. Compared to the estimated 10,000 in San Francisco’s march, they weren’t all that big, but they were just as heartfelt. And I was one of the something like 100 who marched in red neck Tampa from the University of Tampa across the Kennedy Boulevard bridge to City Hall and stood there on the steps until our candles burned out.
This last weekend by shear dumb luck, while being lined up for the march, I wound up standing by a pick up truck filled with water bottles that the production company was handing out to anyone who was thirsty. It turned out that this was also where one of the producers, Dan Jinks, would address the crowd and give us our instructions. He also had a couple of surprises for us.
Cleve Jones came down to talk to the marchers. One of Harvey’s great friends and a fellow father of the gay rights movement, Cleve, in later sadder days, founded the Aids Quilt Project. He told us about Harvey and the early days of Gay Pride and what that original march of 10,000 people was like… gay and straight, of all ages and all races… down this same stretch of street 30 years earlier. He asked for a show of hands of how many were there who had been there 30 years before, and while it wasn’t a huge number, many were indeed back to relive history and walk to remember Harvey once more.
Another friend of Harvey’s also spoke. Gilbert Baker was there in a dark formal suit, a top hat, a sparkling tie, and sequined high top sneakers. The only one in formal attire. Gilbert was the creator of the Gay Pride flag that we take so much for granted and gave us the whole rainbow theme for so much of what we do. He was obviously thrilled that so many people cared and came out.
A kid who didn’t look 30 was introduced to the crowd. Dustin Lance Black, who wrote the script for the movie. While growing up as a gay kid in a conservative Mormon family in San Antonio Texas, he was told about a quote of Harvey Milk’s from an early speech: “Some kid out there in San Antonio, Texas, will hear the story of an openly gay elected official and it will give him hope.” It did indeed, and now Dustin Lance Black, a young openly gay Hollywood writer with a gig working on an HBO series, is paying it forward.
Gus Van Sant spoke ever so briefly, obviously uncomfortable in front of a huge crowd. But it didn’t matter. The openly gay director was a conquering hero. And he had Dan Jinks to direct the crowd with humor and ease.
A gray haired but still youthful looking photographer whose name I sadly didn’t catch was called up as he took pictures of the crowd. He too had been a friend of Harvey’s and had been there back in the beginning, taking, we were told, some of the most famous iconic images of the start of the Gay Pride movement in San Francisco. He photographed the original candlelight march, and was back to photograph it’s recreation.
And so we walked down Market Street to Laguna, lit our candles, and, on cue, marched back. The laughing and cheerful crowd suddenly became silent. It was positively earie to be a part of it. Jinks told us that we could do no wrong as long as we didn’t look at the camera in the middle of the street. And no cell phones, of course. We marched past and then were asked to do it again. We were braced for it, because we had been warned that we might be asked to do this same short march four or five times. And this time the shot was flawed because the camera could see marchers at the end just starting to walk long after the first marchers started. So back we went for a second shot.
We waited for the camera to get ready. The chatty crowd lit their candles, went silent, and time went back 30 years as we walked past the camera. After we walked past, Dan Jinks told the crowd that he had seen as many photographs and as much footage of the original march as he could find. He knew what it looked like. And seeing us march had given him chills. There was no greater way to thank us, but he thanked us profusely and we went home. If I could have found him in the crowd, I would have thanked him.
I walked right next to the camera, head down and feeling genuinely sad as I channeled my memories from 30 years ago. But will I be seen in the movie? Who knows? It’s almost beside the point.
With the subways long closed for the night and the late night Market Street buses redirected to God knows where to avoid the closed street, I walked home. A very long walk, to be sure. But in my reflective mood it wasn’t bad. After all, I was walking down Market Street, reversing the march of 30 years ago on a dark night when it appeared that the gay rights movement was all but dead. When I got to Castro Street, with the last few kids hanging around after the bars closed, it was a typical early Saturday morning. When Harvey Milk was killed most of them weren’t even alive. Those who were, were babies. Harvey is ancient history to them…at least to the ones who even know who he was. Or is… because Harvey Milk is still very much with us in the Castro if you know where to look for him.
When I walked past Orphan Andy’s 24 hour diner I looked up at Gilbert Bakers’ Gay Pride Flag flying high over Harvey Milk Plaza. I walked past the former Elephant Bar, the gay bar famously stormed by San Francisco police in retaliation for the riot at city hall when Dan White, Harvey Milk’s killer, received only 4 years for the murder of two men. It’s now called Harvey’s, and it’s decorated with photographs from the early days of The Castro and the Gay Pride movement.  Of course I had to walk over to Castro Camera. The locally famous painting of Harvey looking out of a window onto the Castro from his apartment over the store has been covered up for the sake of historic accuracy. Hopefully it’ll be back, because I missed it that night. It would have been great to see him looking down and finding his old store intact again.  But the door that he walked out of and off into history is there, and it was like stepping back in time to look into the store window and see Castro Camera recreated down to the smallest details.  A store I’d never seen before, despite walking down the same street for more than 10 years.
Thirty years. Bloody hell.
Then I turned the corner onto 19th Street and headed up the hill toward home. Past the neighborhood elementary school. The Harvey Milk Civil Rights Academy.